Ever have a day that you feel stuck?
Well, I’m having one of those days!
It actually started in the wee hours before sunrise. I couldn’t sleep – I had been awoken by something, a churning in my mind, a premonition of the day to come.
I remember one of my dreams from last night, and in it, I’m having trouble breathing, so much so, that I ran out of my house gasping for air! My dream was trying to tell me something.
Needless to say, I didn’t get much sleep at all, so I started the day feeling lousy!
Now I find myself in motivation limbo! I’m just sitting here indecisive.
I can’t get myself to take a nap, or wash a dish, or do any of the multiple chores that need to be done. I’m drained, and empty!
All of the events of the past few weeks were rolling around in my head. If you read my last blog post, you know that I’ve recently had a dilemma – a decision to intervene in a family issue, did not turn out well, so now I feel the weight of dread, and darkness, lurking over me.
In my tossing and turning last night, I decided to check my phone for the time, and noticed the WordPress icon. I had a comment from a fellow blogger throughrosetintedglasses54, with some kind, and encouraging words in regards to my latest post. Thank you again for that, it does help, knowing that someone out there understands what I’m going through.
Isn’t that what we all want, and need, just to be able to move on? I’m not saying that if we make a bad decision, that it’s not the wrong one, just because someone agrees with what we did. Sometimes we need to know that we made the decision that any logically thinking person would have. It’s like they’re saying “Yep, I would have done the same thing, if I were in your shoes.”
Don’t you wish we could have a moderator in ever major decisions we make? Wouldn’t that be great?!
Well, we actually do!
If we pause, and listen to our heart, and our conscious, then give it over to God, we can know without a doubt that we did the right thing.
I failed, in that I listened to Him at the time, but I didn’t trust that He had it, so I kept asking, “Are You sure?”
That’s why I’ve been stuck!
I knew in my heart that He was guiding me, but I turned off the GPS, thinking that I can find my way from here, but the navigation told me I had arrived at my destination, when in reality, I was stuck on a dead end street, wondering which turn to take next.
I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye.