That’s what they say, but I’m not so sure.
Some things don’t get washed away so easily.
Hurt feelings, betrayal, disrespect, grudges, are all stains that take a lot of spot remover, to get out the blemish lingering in your mind, and in your heart.
I recently had a situation that caused a rift between me, and a family member, and I have been tumbling it around in my mind for almost a month, since it happened.
The question that I keep asking myself, is “would I do it any differently, knowing the outcome?”
My answer is always “No”, I really don’t think so!
I can’t name any names, but I stood up for someone close to me, and I would do it again! The person I stood up to hasn’t gotten over it, and is still holding a grudge. I thought I had moved on, but to be honest, it still bothers me, and probably always will.
I’m only human, I make mistakes, and even though I don’t feel this was a mistake, I still apologized, but have never received any acknowledgement that it’s accepted, or rejected. I even made a piece offering, but they weren’t around to accept it, so I sent it with family.
It would be very easy to tell myself it doesn’t matter if they like me, or not, if it were a stranger, but it’s family, and it does matter.
This is a person that will be connected to me for the rest of my life, like it or not, and I really don’t want to spend those years holding a grudge.
I wonder if it bothers them, as much as it’s bothering me, but probably not, that’s just not the type of person they are, and so that also gets to me!
I try to be the rock for my family, always there to help, in any situation, good or bad, I try to keep my cool, and not freak out.
But this shook me up. What had I done? How was this going to affect my relationship with everyone involved?
For a few days, I was in a real funk! Wondering if I had just screwed up, Royally!
I worried about the repercussions that my actions might have caused for the person I was defending.
I sincerely did not want to cause hard feelings, but felt I had to step in.
This, I felt, could be life, or death, and I didn’t want any of us to have to live with the quilt of being complacent.
Sometimes we have to take that chance, and sacrifice our own well being in order to help the people we love, or just another human being in need.